okay. havent blog for like quite long. 3 days...
feels weird.
the thing is i don rmbr wad happened.
lots of laughter i guess.
sucky moments. wadever.


i really dislike it
i don like my life.

everythings messed up lar.

i need to run
i have to let it go...
i hate stress
how deprived.

study study study.
the problem is, that is not wad im doing.
all that pressure.
im feeling it,
but im not doing anything about it.
hoW? im just that lazy.


=(




woke up late today. hahas. thanks kymm.. for waiting for meee =)
den in the end we almost reached school late. realised alot of other ppl were late too. hahaha
cos it was e bus's fault. it came late today.

the sitting arrangement changed.
now sitting with Fardhan. haha. he's a funny guy lar =)
but karenn's siting so far!

the day was a drag.
den had peer tutoring.
me and cuimin finished it b4 peer tutoring.
feel so satisfied.hahahah.
cuimin's pro lar. she taught me chemistry.
damn good. at least i have a clearer picture now. and realised i gotta memorise alot of things.
started to feel damn sian during that period of time.
anyways. met dora for poa thingy with adriel.
learnt more lar. but still unsure about it. if u give me a question to do now. i'll still go blur.
i so need to buck up.
i feel like scolding myself.
in fact. i need someone to scold me. or rather, motivate me.
my life is so upturned.


my face always black meh



yesterday...went out wif karen tong n gonaidi.
watched Eye 10.
hahaha...scary like mad.
thanks ah gonaidi. wad a crazy show.
went to city harvest's Singapore Indoor Stadium easter thingy at 7

decided to stay over at frenz place after that. quite fun lar. stayed up til 3.
den went to church da next day.
cried over The Passion. hais. damn sad...

den i changed back with ryan....hahaha...
den he take my bag.
cos i wanted to change.
went home after having lunch with them.

den slept til 5+ and went for soccer.
kinda lazy today. didnt run much
later den i started running.haha.

now im like sooo bored. don feel like doing any work.
like i even did work during this long weekend
in fact i slacked all e way. lazy lar.

i CANT UNDERSTAND CHEMISTRY! HELP--------- S.O.S!

i need ppl to study with....really study.
and i need help with chinese..
any chinese tuition to recommend???
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today..going for tuition at 10.30...den go out wif karen.tong.gonaidi...
gonna miss the games and programme @ church...
ah well. den after that gonna go to Singapore Indoor Stadium
cos city harvest has held something there.
levin dora will be there too...

hope its gonna be fun today.
my mood's better though.



its Good Friday
my family has gone out.
they went to Ikea i think
so im alone at home...didnt want to go
no mood. wanted to study
haiz. sec4 life. wad a bummer
im soooo bored at home
bet no one's free to accompany me lor
argh. i hate boredom
i miss laughter
i wish my house had a pool..
i could swim when im bored
kill two birds with one stone
sux lar.
havent at all been in a good mood this whole week




i dont know. im just suffering in silence.



today. school as usual. always late nowadays. haha. but i dont mind. get to sit on da slope...so much better. don have to cramp with the others. got back ppr today. not satisfied with my results man. ive decided to chiong this term. but its probably all talk no action. haha.

so not satisfied with my ppr la.
L1R5 like wad shit.
go sweep floor better.
disappointed n un-motivated

went to j8 with levin to buy moses's present.
HAPPY BDAY MOSES!


after that i went for tuition. did only like a few questions.
shucks la. go there a bit waste time.
was sooo tired lor.
couldnt concentrate much.
met dora after that to get the history project.
another headache.
i dislike projects so much.
den still got chinese shit.
my MT is how bad la.
not to mention my oral.
its those practically wait to fail la.


later maybe going to meet mark. charles. sling. to study. heard eugene's there too.
all go there study.
k la.
mum nagging.



ok. so i guess everythings over? but there would be still some tension in the air.
how i dislike it.
i should be feeling better i guesS?
have to focus on studies.
but its not getting into my head. no one's pushing me.
argh. shucks.
i hate it


i just love the song tong hua
i really would cry over this song
i wish i would hear it everyday
i guess its the only thing i love
besides netball
and wadever sports
oh, plus my friends =)






firstly, he was trying to help me sleep during e chalet.
i really needed the sleep.
had performance e next day. if not i'll probably be dead e next day. and levin would kill me.
so this is wad he gets out of kindness.

secondly,he was trying to console me after that.
and the same thing happens for him being kind again.

please don talk behind our backs lar. just say it in front of our faces.
you guys havent seen the whole picture. and dont know the whole picture.
that is that.
this is to everyone.

this is me. just stating facts. not angry.



first day of sch.
so sucky.
sian the whole entire day.
peer tutoring is like a waste of time lar.
make us chiong
in the end all copy only
no one learn
wad for?

after that didnt feel like going home.
so sian
luckily got lynn to pei me.hee
we went to karenn's house. played cards
thanks lynn!! so nice...first time miss samurai x for me eh.
haha
=))
my dear little mei mei.

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i hope you will be wise.
i hope you will not use violence to solve this problem.
it wont make it better.
it'll probably turn worse.
really.




i love my friends*
---tong hua =)



you know its not his fault. it wasnt bcos of him that it happened. we already had a problem since last yr Dec. why transfer all these anger towards someone else. aren't u happy about this? u requested for it. u said it was better. u've changed.
i know..you might think im trying to speak up for him. no. i am not. this is a fact.
everyone else can be against me. fine. they might not like wad im doing.
stop propaganding.
i dunno wad else to say.
wad else to type.
i guess only some people can comprehend.
the rest would probably listen to you. esp e guys.
i don't know wad would be going through everyone's minds.
i havent rant enough. this is only a part of it.
i hope the truth would be heard.




although this had an ending and it will always say as an end.
i still wanna thank you for the memories
the stuff u did. the kindness u've shown. i hope that side of u comes back.


life
s.u.x

thanks karen, dora, lynn..for listening.
i love you guys lots and lots. <3



recently.. i just dont feel like typing about wad is happening... whether good or bad. ah well

havent finished homework.
history project too.
stressed out

oh..been falling in love with a chinese song. called 'tong2 hua4' i tink...if im not wrong. not sure who sang it. its damn nice. first time i heard it.. didnt really think much of it. after listening to it a few times. i just love it. but anyway....




okay. finally blogging. didnt come online for quite long.. lots of things happened. don wanna type it out though. lazy.


ok. the 9pm show rox! last episode today =)



don feel like blogging already.



just came back from karen's house. haha. morning went for tuition...met mark den we went there together. after that made fardhan walk me to the bus stop. went to karen's house about 2+ all e way til 5+... she and chee tong ar..really like watching movie. next time i just bring popcorn watch them. hhaha. slacked most of e way.. was singing songs wif karen. haha. esp Beautiful Soul. =))

shall do some homework later. haiz. haven revised history. howw..... social studies also. like no time leh. so much maths homework. still must watch 9pm show. okay lar. my priorities are wrong. hee.

tmr maybe going to sch. juniors having match against Broadrick. nvr heard of dat sch. haha. must win k juniors!!!

i miss netball.

i love my netballers*


you and your beautiful soul*



you and your beautiful soul-*





i think im beginning to love that song.
karen lar.
put it on her blog.


* i dont want another pretty face
i dont want just anyone to hold
i dont want my love to go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul-



11 march[fri]: karen's bday!!
HAPPY BDAY KAREN!!
after sch had heats... den i rushed back home about 5+, pack all my stuff den rushed out again to moses's house. they were having practice there. dwight and levin were there. reached there about 6? den practiced til 7.20...den left for karen's chalet at costa sands.. haha. sooo fun =) had bbq and all that. the thai ppl came too. they damn funny. gave 4e4 a drawing of two hands clasped together.like racial harmony of some sort. pretty nice of them. played card games at the chalet... moses.mark.lynette.kah kiat.daniel.kongba.karen.levin.chee tong. stayed over.didnt sleep til next day early morning...

12 march[sat]: woke up at 8+am cos had to go down to the Youth Park for sound check. had this performance thing. pugjelly and the press were there.me and levin were desperately short of cash that day. so horrid. didnt like the feeling. had sound check den went to my church for practice at 12pm...all the way til 3. moses. tuck wah.dora came to see us. went back to the youth park about 3+....lots of ppl there...mostly whitleyans. the area was scorching hot. practically everyone was sweating. our band only performed at about 5+ 6....haha. it went great lar. although a bit of screw ups. =) ber came to watch too. after that all of us went for dinner together.. went home about 10? met my mum den we went home together. knocked off at 11.

13 march[sun-yesterday]: had church today..so pretty normal. got up at 8.15am...went to church...after church went to orchard to eat...den left about 3+. reached home at 4+....wanted to do homework. but too tired. so i napped til 5pm. woke up and went to play soccer. sooo fun! lots of ppl went that day. it was great =) as per normal, went to my grandma's house after that. had fun there too. played cards...ate chips. haha.my cousins rock. went home at 10+? den slept at 11.30..

today: haha...just woke up not long. about 8:15am...cos my sis and mum so noisy..den it stirred me. the thai ppl are going off today...at 11am. some of them gonna send dem off. but i didnt want to go. shall study at home and try to finish e homework today. and study chinese..haiz.. o levels coming... sianz.. maybe going out later at 4.. ah well. tired after trying to rmbr all the events since friday. but it was a great weekend. leg pain now...cos of heats and soccer. got some injury. both left and right foot. haiz. tired...shall go back to sleep...if im able to.

i love my netballers*





ahh. today so tired. so fustrating..like got sooo much things to do. so much happening.

after sch went home...slept a little..like half an hour. den went out to meet levth.christina.tuck wah... for practice. practice did not go very well. haiz. i still hope it'll sound good on saturday.

after that went with levth to meet kong.moses...


tmr got heats den maybe practice den after dat karen's chalet. so much stuff. the plan so messed up. den have to pack for e next day. cos have to reach there at 9.30am. argh.

anyway, i just feel like drinking something cold.



today got thailand ppl came to our class. they like went crazy over them like that. hoard over them. anyway, don care so much. after school...watched da bball inter house. hahahah.. more like a comedy manz. me and karen laugh like mad ar. score was 100-25. they purposely one lar. hahaha. jian qiang really damn funny. benjamin and leonard also. karen laugh until need to go toilet. hee...

after that i went home be myself...haha. at least kah kiat treat me drink..den i had myself occupied for the whole way. i was trying to suck the grass jelly thingy out from the cup. so hard lor. i suck until i go home. its quite tiring.

reached home about 4+....5....den went out again to meet lynn. hahaha. so funny. so out with her damn funny. anyways. we shop until lynn's leg wanna break. den after walking like dunno how long. we sat down at long john's while lynn ate her little dinner. i bought fries. den we went toilet. and guess what happened. i lost levin's ring!! ahhhh.... i feel damn bad lor. den i called him but he say nvm he wanna slp. okay lar. so not that bad. but i still feel that guiltiness. sorry sorry sorry...

after that came home about 8.50pm to catch da 9pm show. love it.. im sooo addicted. haha.

im so tired. so busy. so much work. always got stuff to do.
but i don feel like doing it. lazinesss-

i love my netballers*



today...went to school with cramps... den through history lesson it got worse. i didnt do any of miss singh's work. okay. like i actually do it when im well. anyways...it was sooo painful. i couldnt take it so when mr lim stomped out of e class cos he was damn angry. i went to the office to sign out. luckily had a good fren like dora. she helped me find mr kor den tell him i was gonna sign out den helped me pack my bag and call cab for me. thanks dora! i was in great pain lor. couldnt even walk. after i came out frm e sch toilet i look pale like mad. even i also scared ah. when i reached home about 9am+ i chionged home and dropped on the bed immediately and slept.woke up about 2pm.. watched Brother Bear and ate lunch at the same time. the story so sad! i cried lor. haiz.some story about the brothers..and a bear.[duh] anyways, very touching.

after that i went to study chinese with dora.levin.moses. met mark.eugene.austin.charles.jeremy mark.sling there...levin was a little crazy and moses was too quiet. came home about 9.05pm to watch the 9pm show!! ahhhh.... i just love the part about meiman and raymond. bloody meide...and that simon really no brains.

and now online chatting after the show. gurvinder wants me to write about her in this blog. ok. here it is. gurvinder. eh i got write ur name hoh. not bad already. hope no one puked.

shall study chinese later. got chinese test. so sian. going to hols already and still give test. even the last day of sch i have a maths test. vectors..shucks man. and we have history project. i don even wads it about.

i don like skipping sch.

i love my netballers*



sunday: went to church.. den met up with levin.moses.dora.melanie(dora's fren).dwight.christina...cos we had some practice thing to do for e youth park performance. so we reached the studio place. but in the end no studio to practice in. so all of them came to my house instead to practice...but dora and melanie left us. practiced til 5pm den all left as i was going for soccer. soccer was damn fun... rox in fact. went home after that. oh, girls soccer match was postponed. sad.


HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY FARDHAN!!
today: hahaha..had loads of fun today. after school had peer tutoring...den before that went to eat lunch and bought a cake for Fardhan. played a trick on him and he sat on the cake we bought him..hahas...i took a video of it. damn funny! Fardhan tried to take revenge. we all started running away. me n karen tried hiding in the girls toilet. but to no avail. he still came in to the girls toilet! got cake on my shirt in the end. had to clean up after that. overall it was just damn fun and all of us had a great laugh..hahas.

after that lynn treat me to her apple cheese cake! soooo nice! thanks lynn (=
but i don dare eat so much. quite ex ah.
met my mum at about 4+ den i went to cut hair... okay lar. much better than that bloody guy who cut my hair the last time. so horrid. that mark say look like mushroom. and i couldnt agree better. anyway its not as nice as the first time i cut it cos the guy spoilt my hair and the style there is kinda lost. but better lar. after that went shopping.... my mum started looking at all those kiddie clothes. at first i thought it was damn cute. den it got pretty boring. at least i bought something lar. den went home about 8+...so i watch the 9pm show.

wahhh.. i don like Meide ahh.. but i lurve watching Meiman and Raymond....hahahaha..so cute. anyways. having a damn bad flu now. shall not study. slack today. in fact i have been slacking since last week. must buck up. k lar. shall slp now.
nitez*

i love my netballers*



today...woke up at 7...8am met tzi wei.went to run at bishan stadium with her. met noor there.. hahas. quite fun lar. i run damn slow on track. den by the time i reached home was like 9am.. den 9am history lesson suppose to start. so i was damn late....by the time i reached there was like 9.45am... a bit paiseh la. den 10.30am class ended. i rushed home to get my books for tuition den met syahrul to go tuition together...til about 2.45...den came back home. going out again to church. need to leave in 15 mins time. ah well. wad a tiring day. couldnt concentrate in tuition. wanted to c trim my hair lor. den no time again. maybe next week lar. tmr still got jamming...crap. i dont even know the song.. must go listen...

aiya. tired already. shall go nap for that 15mins.
over and out-



was late for sch today..took a taxi...luckily still in time. started the day off with a pretty bad mood. was probably pmsing. english class was horrible for me..had cramps loh...den pain like mad. luckily is subsided after english period.

anyways. had netball after sch...sooo fun! haha.finally got to play. after trained the sec1s. horrible man. i teach until mouth damn dry. gurvin also. some of dem just cant understand and their attitude is terrible. no respect at all. after that came home... didnt go for jeff's concert thingy and badminton. ah shucks. maybe some other time. haiiz...

tmr's schedule damn packed.
7am-running wif tzi wei
9am-history class in school
11am-tuition wif mark daniel syahrul they all..
4pm-church prac.
at night probably go cut hair.
tireeedd...

going out later.
but definitely coming home b4 9pm.
im addicted to the 9pm chinese drama!!
hahaha-

i love my netballers*



monday: studied

tuesday:studied

wednesday: played pool. studied

today: should be studying or slacking. what a bummer. mugging year. i dislike it sooo much. problem is, i don even know whether wad im studying is going into my head. these few days keep having bad mood. all this o level crap is making me stressed up. so depressing... and there isnt an open door for me to release all of it. no netball. not playing soccer. just study.. no more fun. all work. full of it. i just need a place to relax. and a door. that essential door.

i miss netball

emmeline khoo(:

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